Third India Training (or what it prepared me to deal with)

These past two weeks have reminded me more and more that God is ever present, faithful, and real. He knows His children and hears their cry. These past two weeks have been rough. They have been filled with doubt, distress, sickness, and spiritual attack. I am tired and emotional and yet I feel more blessed and more of God’s nearness than I have in a long while. It’s probably because these two weeks have required unconditional surrender and dependence on Him.

Two weeks ago, at our third India meeting, Nick Fox came to speak to us about spiritual warfare. I have realized the most effective way to tear my gaze away from the Lord, to get me to forget to trust Him is not through crazy supernatural events. It is through the mundane, small things that are out of my control. The enemy realizes this as well.

Here are the ways I have felt spiritually attacked these past two weeks:
-There were complications with my visa
-I became seriously ill, unable to hold any food or water down every day for two weeks
-My car’s transmission broke suddenly
-I’ve been overwhelmed with a constant spirit of overwhelming anxiety
-I’ve been dealing with a depression and loneliness when I am home
-Last minute complications in planning Joy and my benefit show

On Wednesday, as I was driving on my way to urgent care because of sickness, overwhelmed with how out of control my life felt, I heard God speak to me. It was so clearly His voice speaking, saying “I will deliver you.” I was reminded of Colossians 1:13, “The Father has delivered and drawn us to Himself out of the control and dominion of darkness and has transferred us into the kingdom of the Son of His love.” It brought me to tears, and for the first time in my life, I wholeheartedly thanked God for not sparing me from these struggles. 

I realized my God is just as real and tangible as the spiritual attack I am dealing with. And the good news is, as strong as these attacks are and as strong as the enemy is, my God is so much stronger. And He will deliver me. 

What a wonderful and faithful God we serve. Praise Him.

Please join me in fervently praying for protection for myself and my team. I am not the only one experiencing spiritual attack on the team. Fundraising is low, there were a whole lot of visa problems, and it is very easy for us to become discouraged. Please pray for a renewing of the Spirit, for encouragement, and for provision.